So I knew it was over. Sean and I have been together for 6 years, since we where 17. We met in a college program in a kitchen learning the basics of cooking and after one date we where crazy for each other.
Over time we have grown in to adults. Going to college together. That’s when I saw warning signs. He was interested in other girls, and in some ways he did act upon that interest. But I forgave him, rebuilt that trust and moved on.
Second year of college it happened again. Same thing.. I forgave him rebuilt the trust and moved on.
In January 2006 I found out that he had been seeing this waitress at the restaurant where he works as a cook. They where caught making out one night. Both had been drinking but Sean claims he wasn’t drunk.
It was rough month but I was convinced that we could make it through it. I set boundaries not letting myself be pushed over. No sex, no kissing. Slowly I found out more times he lied to me and sure it hurt, but my love was stronger.. much stronger.
So now its april, and we have been rebuilding things slowly. Its taken time but Im starting to trust him again, love him again, and prepare for a different type of relationship.
There was talk of a trip to France which I was invited on. I was then uninvited, by his parents in not so many words. That is a WHOLE new posting. His parents don’t like me.. I wonder why.
I told Sean that he should wait and we will travel together like it was always our dream. I told him if he leaves for a few weeks to travel Europe I wont wait and I will be under the impression he is no longer interested in this relationship. He booked the tickets yesterday.
So now I feel used. I feel defeated and deflated. I packed up all his stuff and told him to come and get it tomorrow morning. All he did was say OK.
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